thank you,

for saving my life

for both play and cry with me

for accompany me wherever I am

for everytime consider about me

 

I used to be sooooo dead. I hate the world, hate everybody, even my parents, myself.

life is nothing, and everything's stupid. 

I never foget the feeling of no tomorrow, no hope, no interestes in being alive!

That is not the fault of the world, of anyone else, not myself, just I lost, in some corner.

 

I don't wanna turn out, will it be another missing if I keep going.

I wanna finish, be done, stop pain.

I dont know or dont care what is in front, what is going on, no matter the sunrise still come or not.

 

By "definition", I am not failed, in life. But I failed myself.

I feel bitter, for my self, no any reason for anything or anyone. like I said, I did not failed, but still suffering.

Please save me... 

 

I feel sorry about you.

I am not that good when you met me, but you are the best I ever met at the moment.

You play with me, listen to me,

You care about every single word I said, every single look I express,

you smile to me, even though know I am sad

you get close to me, but not touch me, only feel me

you tell me I am not alone, even I dont wanna bother anyone, including you

I tell you I dont want another day, I dont expect anything. I am not crazy but clam, and I just skip the rest of days of my life

 

At the last second...

you save me, when I try to fall asleep deeply without waking up anymore

you stay with me, dont let me go, go to another place to finish my pain

you tell me there is tomorrow, right for me, and you will always be there...

my hope will be taken by you, you are the one,

who lead me out of that uncertainty

who will be with me anytime

who will give me hope

who will give me a new me

 

I tell you, dont, I cant give to you anything, I am going to dead, right now!

you said, you dont want anything, only care about me, only stay there, a place I can go when I hurt

I can leave, but not now, not to another place, only when find better life, or happiness

now stay here, stay with you,

like your little girl,

be your little babe,

take a nap

there will be a sweet dream made by you for me.

 

Now I am sleeping and smiling...without pain

Thank you, my sweetheart.

Thank you for being with me

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

美 国 风 光,
千 里 兵 疯,
万 里 血 漂。
望 纽 约 内 外,
废 墟 莽 莽；
白 宫 上 下，
顿 时 逃 逃。
你 舞 战 斧，
我 施 冷 枪，
真 主 上 帝 试 比 高。
须 晴 日，
看 曼 哈 顿 岛，
分 外 萧 条。
石 油 如 此 稀 少，
引 无 数 枭 雄 竞 折 腰。
惜 阿 尔 道 夫，
功 亏 一 篑；
东 条 英 机，
两 弹 魂 消。
一 代 天 骄，
拉 登 老 弟，
只 识 驾 机 撞 世 贸。
俱 往 矣，
数 风 流 人 物，
还 看 锦 涛。

怀念一个时代，白衣如纯，阳光明媚，你说，亲爱的亲爱，永远的永远，我说，一定不会忘记，因为它在心底！

So windy yesterday, that reminds me a memorable place which i used to be three years ago. same wind, same sea, same ppl, but cant avoid some change, or in another word, totally change. for that, no need to mention too much, cos everything gonna end. this year maybe the last year i back there. aii, everything have to end even nothing left yet, passing one by one, finally, how much i can carry?